My case in point is I have known and embraced the truth about God as our Father. Because of my history calling any one Daddy was not in me to bring to the forefront of my life. I seem to be standing as close to it as anyone can be even with maybe my toes over the line but not inside this circle of truth . Nor was this truth in me. I recently went to a Reveal conference in Portland Oregon. All through the conference they kept telling us that we have our Daddies ear . What do you want to ask Him? I could not seem to respond to the posed question until the second night session. While in worship I could see myself approach the Father's ear and I was surprised to hear myself say "I just want to tell you I love you". his response was" Now we can go there" I saw a curtain pulled back . I saw my need for a Daddy. I saw a little girl desperate for a Daddie . My soul screamed "I need a Daddy " many times . then I wept" I need a Daddy now". It was like I stepped into love as a place. I was totally inside the circle and it was in me. Because of my history I could not see my need. Without seeing my need, I for some reason would not receive my blessing of a Daddie. I am learning to pray " Daddy show me my need".
The next reveal was, a little girl's relationship with her Daddy is her spine for the rest of her life. I didn't have that so the enemy made sure I took on rebellion as my spine. All the choices I had made for my life was from the wrong Spirit. When I went through deliverance for rebellion I was left without one . The choices I made from there were barely better. Now I have a new spine spiritually. I hope for one day a physical one. I have many back issues and metal brackets in my back. This reveal comes with a class on asking Daddy for permission and living out of a closeness with Him. Huge shift in how I can operate. It is kind of like driving lessons. This is going to take some practice. I am determined to learn to operate in and with Kingdom culture.