I had an unkind thought at the moment . "what good was your word to buy for me when you are not available to do it?
That is when it hit me, Lord am I available when you need me or am I off doing my own thing. I understand what I am doing is not sin or rebellion. It might be some idolatry if I choose it overYou. I am thinking that may be your point here. If I am too busy to answer your promptings than maybe I am not so much in pursuit of you as I thought I was. Perhaps I am in pursuit of other things and I have side lined you for a more convenient time.
Another thought just hit. Do I ever give money instead of myself. Am I buying off a moment of the privilege I could of had experiencing something with you, like operating in your incarnate power and love. I am not dissing giving money. So much kingdom work requires us to give for it to succeed. I am just thinking about not neglecting to be generous with myself. I want to be available to be the broken bread and poured out wine the world needs so His kingdom can come and His will be done on earth as it it is in Heaven. AMEN