How quickly I forgot I have been called into a season of of asking Daddy. It is training for living a closer life to HIm. I have lived so long at the other end of the paradigm I really need to learn this. I am feeling it is my healing from an orphan syndrome that has plagued so many of us.
This situation has caused me to pause and rethink what I think sin is. I am familiar with Adam and Eve's sin, eating a fruit they were told not to. They made choice to rule themselves. A choice to be their own God.
Orphans have no parent to raise them . A parent is God's proxy while a child is growing up . In essence the orphan child must attempt to parent himself, to do what is best for him in his or her own eyes. One perspective would be they have become their own God by default. Doing what is best in my own eyes instead of my Father God's eyes . This would constitute sin in me. Fortunately I am a child of God and I live under love and not law. I will take my correction gladly and repent . That means I am so sorry Daddy , I will take my lumps(whatever You decide) and be mindful to do better.
I am thankful I am not left on my own and my Daddy cares enough to train me up in the way I should go.