In my dream I was in heaven standing in a field. Both of my parent stood before me. I have to say I was surprised to see them there. Then the Lord said "Real forgiveness means you will go up and hug them." I took a second to think that over but then I did. Then He said " Now talk to them". I saw and heard myself in the dream tell them " It is alright I lived I died and live again." Then I walked off in this dream with them . I even held my Mother's hand . I noticed then we looked about the same age. I saw my self talking but I could not hear my words, I could only feel the conversation. I felt like a big sister giving out wisdom to a younger sibling. The Lord then said "my eternity has already started and I needed to talk like it and act like it." Then I woke up.
I realized I have to change my perspective of heaven and my life on earth. I am Happy we made it there. I Pondered the fact even though my parents are both in heaven now i need to honor them somehow in my life. This year I posted a picture of my Mother on facebook forthe first time. I will probably do that for my Father on Fathers Day too. I don't know what else yet.
My parents and I have always been estranged, so such acknowledgements brought and unexpainable peace and turmoil at the same time. I am guessing the cause is in the conflict of finally putting forgiveness to rest . There is a newness of relationship with them I never felt before. Perhaps it is thinking about the conversations we will be having when I finally join them. Those will be conversations and experiences in relationship we could never enjoy on earth. When God gives these little jewels to me I never know why when they happen . I wait and see what He will unfold in me or maybe it is about the next thing He will ask me to do. I will let you know. In the mean time I think someone else needs to rethink their parent too.