i went to my chiropractor this week . He is a wonderful believer. In the midst of being pushed and popped into place , he asked me a surprise question you might want to think over too. He said" If God were not in heaven would you still want to go?......... I said "what would be the point?" Apparently that was the right answer in his book. According to him most people just say yes because heaven is described as such a nice place. However if you live in relationship you want to be where your loved one is.
I know when I pray He hears me. Times like now when I am not seeing it with my eyes I used to doubt my value to Him. One good thing about maturity is you get to have better thoughts. In my maturity I know even when Papa is silent , He is present. I can sit on His lap and enjoy His warmth and comfort without a word. I know His heart is for me and He has good plans for me. He has quietly held my hand through the tough times, made me brave and able to endure. Thank you Papa for your care for me.
I recently had a dream I was lost and could not find my destination. I thought my car was out of control so I stuck my foot out and stopped my car and watched some cars pass me. I thought I kept myself safe. As I got back into the car I noticed the dash board was different . Nothing familiar as how to operate it. I pushed a button and the car started . I reached for the steering wheel and it was moved out of my reach.. That was the end I woke up. My first thought was I am a failure and out of control. After prayer I knew It was Papa telling me to not slow the car down and he will drive from here. It is a new day and things are going to work differently. He has got this....
This is one of those days where I have to step back and assess myself. Nothing seems to be working for me. . All my efforts are falling on the ground. I think I have stepped out into The " I I I can do it". Reality check NO I can't do it on my own. Time to get on my knees and get with Papa. Papa I can do nothing outside of you. Forgive my zeal and miss directedness. Thank you that you never leave me . I just keep running off into so many directions. Help me my counselor Holy Spirit to rest in Him and wait. You have given me so much Papa I am eager to give it away. Today is humble yourself and wait.