I love Todd white's testimony. If you haven't heard it google him. He is not afraid to say he was guilty. He is not afraid to describe how dark a person he was , that he would even threaten to kill his wife if she left him. He can stand before anyone now and testify to the transforming love of God. The God who shown a great light into his darkness and fear.
I can testify to that too . I once once was better looking on the outside and darkness and ugly (probably more stupid ) on the inside because I am living as my own god. Time wears the body down but the inside get brighter and filled with the beauty of the Lord as you walk through this life with Him
I recently had someone bring up my past in a way that did not glorify God or dignify me. I remember thinking about how I am not that person. I am so far removed from her I am looking back from a far place. I was them suddenly moved by compassion for her and other young women who have fallen into the snares set for them.
Now my prayer is Lord where do I go how do I give away what you have given me.