In the beginning my walk with God (Trinity) was about awakening to all God had done for me and is doing, along with what He will be doing in my life. When you think about it, this relationship has been really really front loaded. I am borrowing that term from a loan institution. They Front load the interest on the loan payback so the investors get their money back long before the debt is paid. I guess it is working in reverse because God invested a lot and He is going to get so little inreturn in my eyes. In His eyes I think it may be a huge return because He gets us. Apparently He values us so much more than we do.
Moving onto the next phase of this relationship . I personally attempt to respond to all of this with gratitude.
Some respond with what I have seen as very legalistic. I view that as more of a crime and punishment situation. It makes it about do this or else consequences. I think gratitude makes for a better basis for relationship than
"love ME or go to hell". I could never see a love relationship starting that way.
When we fell in love with someone earthly it would never work out on that basis. Why did we ever start to think that it would work with God. God certainly never thought that way about it. He is love and that is never how love operates.
It seems in order to be fulfilled, in the next phase of my marriage relationship was creating an usness. I see the next phase of my relationship with God the same way. The same premise with God of creating an oneness in my marriage instead of two seperate people living under one roof.
What is usness with God? What is His focus and goal for being in a relationship with you. Why did He create Man in he first place? I think the same reason two people in love get married and then want to include children in their circle of love.
In Relationship, a two way street must exist along with the unity . Some think God's' goal is for us to work hard to accomplish tasks , save the world. Jesus already saved the word. Our job was to bring the good news, but first we need to get the good news of this love relationship into our own souls.
Most relationships I know about begin with interaction and getting to know each other . Relationship has stages and levels of trust and getting to know how your relationship is going to work. Kind of like a 3 legged race. You do small things together to learn each others ways . God already knows you but He is very patients to let you get to know Him until you are able to be in love with Him. He has been there all along . Like the lover He is, He waits for you and encourages you along. I have not known Him to engage you in an endeavor beyond the level of love relationship you are in with Him.
I have been spending my days reminding myself in all my mundane tasks that He is here with me. He is keeping me company . He often has input and encouragements. I have realized I need a mindfulness of His presence and also what would He like to do or say in a situation. I what to make sure He has the lead voice in our relationship because I love and respect Him. Also I always want to leave waiting room for the providential acts of heaven.