I have not given up hope, I think that is important. I am now in a mode of searching for my truth about my healing. What lessons about my faith walk is the Holy Spirit trying to teach me that is different than theirs. We are all different and God is aware He made us that way. So what do I need to learn I could not learn any other way.
What I do know is I can not let the issues of my health or age define who I am. I do not use the doctors labels in my own description on myself. I am consistently declaring the truth of what Jesus did in the face of my issues. That's my contending for the victory that belongs to me as a child of God no matter how long the battle rages on.
There are some great songs out about fear. I often change the words when I sing along with the radio. to pain or sickness your not welcome here. Pain and sickness don't stand a chance when I am standing in your love. It helps build my faith and fight in a joyful way. I have listened to teaching that you build your way up from small miracles to faith for big ones. One person described it as like building a muscle. They keep working it out until the muscle shows up.
One of my life scriptures is "don't grow weary in doing what is right for at the proper time we will reap if we do not loose heart" Galatians 6:9
Hang tight Peeps