We all have trust issues. I understand the trust issues I have with people. What I am trying to grasp now is why do I have trust issues in my soul with God when in my head I am saying I trust you God with all my life.
When I don't trust people I can work a relationship to where I can justify to trust or not to trust eventually. Or I can qualify what areas of our relationship I can trust them and to what degree.
Even though many things have happened in my life I don't like, God has done so many things to help, bless and rescue me. Then there is the fact that He suffered so much and went to a cross to pay all my debts and wipe away useless guilt and shame.
I want to understand why my soul holds it breath when I have to absolutely have to depend on God for an answer.
My recent example is now I need money to publish my book. that huge expense is not in my budget, being on social security. Knowing that God asked me to write the book, now I must wait and trust that money will show up somewhere.
where God is in it all. What part is him and which part is just life on a fallen planet. what should the power over my life look like?